I’ve been sick for most of my life, and as such, illness ended up becoming a basic part of my identity: I was the sick girl, the one with all the weird symptoms and intolerances and diagnoses and treatments. The last several years, while I was full time healing from end stage Chronic Lyme Disease, my entire life revolved around illness.
For the longest time it hadn’t occurred to me that I was brave. When someone would comment on my perceived bravery in the face of chronic illness and long term healing, I would ask myself, “Is this true?” I began to wonder if I was indeed brave, despite not feeling it.
Whenever I’m looking for an answer, I start by asking a question. In this case, What does it really mean to be brave? Why is it that others saw courage within me, and more important, why is it that I hadn’t seen it in myself? Continue Reading…
A recent bought of the flu was an opportunity to relearn the important of self-forgiveness for self-healing.
Especially for us Type-A types, it’s all too easy to feel responsible for not living up to perfectionistic ideals. Like being able to do all the things all the time while remaining impervious to inconveniences like illness.
Your healing is always occurring in the NOW.
I created a self-forgiveness practice that allowed me to fully forgive myself and move forward with my healing. Find it in the post HERE.
Offering ourselves friendship is always good medicine. I’m a big ‘ol nerd, so this is my idea of being an awesome friend to myself.
Sometimed you just need stupid easy. Like a tasty meatball recipe that’s only got 3 ingredients.
Remember playing with Play-Doh as a kid? Or mud? Remember pretending to make food? It was fun! Well making meatballs is fun. It’s food-play for adults. And unlike the faux-foods of our childhoods, these handmade creations are not only edible, they’re deelish.
My favorite way to have food-fun is to pick out an album I can sing-along with. Oh yeah baby, it’s karaoke time! Even though I love cooking, I know if I push myself, I won’t be having fun. But sitting down for Food Prep Karaoke? That’s a blast.
When this starts to happen it’s time to unplug & recenter.
Chronic Lyme Disease treatments aren’t covered by any form of insurance. I rely on donor support through my GoFundMe campaign to help me afford my healing. The good news is crowdfunding has helped me a lot. The bad news is it’s basically medical panhandling.
Our Beloved Bodies are always working hard to help us heal, so give thanks!
My stainless steel enema bucket and I go way back…
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Yup, this happened. What matters is that I choose to NOT internalized any food shame, forgave myself, and got right back on track with healing self care. My mantra in these moments: I am perfectly imperfect.